Thursday, February 19, 2009

I'm being stalked by Patience...

KoreanBaby.jpg Korean Baby image by jzsak

Is it possible to look at this face and not be happy?? Wish I could pinch those chubby cheeks right now! Sooo cute!!

So here's the deal..
Its kinda weird to know that something is so right.. but to also know that there is such a loooong wait ahead of us.. That part kinda sucks! A lot.
So basically, we just have to get over it and relax.

"Patience is a virtue." Right, Mom? :)
No. Patience is a drag.
Its stupid & boring... and often times, tormenting.
Its all in God's timing though. Thankfully He is in control and not us, because we really don't know what we are doing 99.9% of the time... or is that just us?

Stuart and I were just chatting tonight about how quickly all of this seems to be happening now. Truly, we've been hoping and praying for this for years... like 7, probably more like 8.. okay maybe 9...
And. Nothing. Ever. Happened.
So we thought, whatever.. It was a nice dream, coulda been great! Just apparently not for us.
Or so we thought...
As soon as we changed our focus from what we wanted (China) to what God wants for us (Korea)... BAM! The pieces are suddenly zooming together in such a hurry that we are a little freaked out! We're not used to life actually working out! ;) Ha!
Seriously though. What the crap is going on?
Except that for the first time, we are trying (I repeat, trying) to let God lead us to our baby... instead of us telling Him what to do. (That has to be the ultimate in bossiness)
Its almost like when we quit forcing the wrong key into the door & pulled our heads out of our asses, we finally saw that we were breaking into the wrong, stupid house to begin with!
Does that make sense??
Oh but it didn't end there! When we could clearly see that our key wasn't working.. Well, then we tried to break the door down. And when that was a 'no-go', we attempted to squeeze our big ol' behinds through a tiny 3-inch gap under a window. (not a pretty sight)
Yeah, it was ridiculous.
We just didn't trust that God wanted this as much as we do.. We were determined! But He was dragging His feet! C'mon, God!
So we had to figure out a way, with or without His help. Obviously that worked out well.
Ah, yes... and my dear friend, Patience, showed up along the way, of course. Hmmm, seems to be a reoccurring theme in my life..

Funny how we could have possibly thought that our hearts were hurting more than His for the orphaned and abandoned children of the world... wow.
Okay... Clearly rambling on... Sorry... Its late.

Anyway, that's how things are going as of this moment. Still counting down the days til our 1st adoption meeting in less than 3 weeks! Yay!
We'll continue to update you with blogs and posts of random photos & Korean factoids with minimal rambling, when possible. :)
Thanks for sticking around and checking in!



3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Enjoying the blog. Keep us posted... things are really moving along.

Anonymous said...

I am so happy for you guys!!! It takes very special people, called and annointed, to adopt. You guys are going to make such awesome parents! Now here's the big question: Will the baby's name start with S?

Dawanna said...

That is the sweetest face ever. I KNOW how hard it is to wait for God's timing. We're there right now with no income for the last 2 months! AAAHHHH!!!! It's amazing to me that sometimes, He's just waiting for us to let go. We are so busy with our determination to JUST DO SOMETHING, ANYTHING, that He has to wait on us to just be still, and let Him do His stuff. It will be big stuff, amazing stuff. You guys are amazing for holding onto that dream for all of these years. Throughout the roller coaster ride of trying to navigate the adoption process, He WILL open the perfect door for you two. The one that has YOUR baby on the other side of it. That little soul that He has chosen for you. I love you both wholeheartedly, and I cannot wait to squeeze and love on my little niece or nephew.